Veils mean people CAN'T see. DUH.

Why fuck off on others who clearly are under the grand spell. 

nobody left behind this time

Why Are You Mad @ PPL Who Can't See

The Ultimate Game

 So.. it seems we have to play the game to even beat it.  This is THE game we live in. Locked in until death... Then possibly start over again as a new player. Until we get to......... ? I remember some of my pasts.  The feeling is the best description, with fleeting visuals.. For now until I know how to tell you. If they are meant to be told.

I was trying to resist playing....and waiting for the end. Not seeing, not remembering the main or beginning reason for even being here. Back in this time. Back in or Back to? Which one? Maybe both.

Self discipline in this realm is definitely..or well can be extremely hard. Especially for those of us still in or somewhat in the grip of our vices.  You know. The stuff that makes us feel good and get through the day to day.... (yes i meant to say it that way.)

So..this is will be the story on my way to..and hopefully suceeding to the "top" . Whatever that is going to look like. Not sure. But i feel it.. and can't tell you yet. But i hope you feel it too. Yea be happy, it's true. I"m not there yet. Am still in the dark..on the bottom in the red. Yup. But i feel the rise. Definitely. So glad to be able to see and realize..just looking for the will..and the color back. To climb back up.  

This is not just an 'individual's' story. It is not just me me me. Me...can and will be WE. Hope i will have the courage. Cuz this shit is really seriously rough. "They" knew what they were doing putting me in me. This will surely be a challenge.  The alone one to many?  

Several over the years have said that I speak in riddles.