OCTOBER 29TH 2014

I was like "Wait, how could this be? (On Sunday) as I looked through the window in his apartment at the top floor of the building.  "Wow." Feelings of awe and emotional wonder swept through me... swept over me. "Life?!" This is amazing! This is real? We dream of distant lands/places. Some of fairy-tale lands, other worlds, other dimensions, universes...etc.. but do we REALLY take notice of the one we're in?  THIS world? Our Home.  Our home as of now.  What we know. It's as beautiful and as wondrous as any dream we can imagine or have while asleep...as wondrous as any made up world from feelings and thoughts.  Ours is just as if not more amazing too!  It's all here. It's all REAL.  Our world.  EVERYTHING you imagine and can imagine is real.  Good & dark...evil.. It's all HERE. The world that we speak of..think of..we're in it. We live this!  Open your eyes. Open your mind. Open your heart. FEEL...DEEPLY.... Drop everything.

The land of the *"living*". Life IS here.

Um, apparently this blog emails people in my contact list or something.  If you don't want this then just kindly remove yourself.  ....  Haven't been on this thing in a while so these settings are from way back and at the moment I'm going outside.. Don't feel like figuring it out.

Good morning. Sorry for hurting your eyes if they're hurt. Just remove yourself. Have a great day/life.. whichever applies lol.  =)

Wow.. hello there. Lucid Insanity huh.. What is that?  ...  Being aware of being insane?  Awareness of coming insanity? Awareness in the insanity of this world?  There are many meanings.  I wish I can change this blog name to Exquisite Mind Fuck now.. lol  So much has happened in the what.. past 4 years wow.. has it really been that long since I've written here?  Well typed.

I'm up tonight.. It was hot earlier and then it doesn't help that my kid just keeps coughing and coughing. Poor baby.  Btw she turned 5 this week.  Can't believe that...time is definitely going.. And um I'm trying to HOLD ON TO MY 20's. Shit.  These years..this youth will never come again.

Bear with me... my thoughts will jump and be all over the place.. but there may be a consistency in the long run.

I dunno who I'm talking to or why.. am just talking.. haven't done this in a while. Feels nice to type super fast just from the head.  Sometimes my fingers...my hands... have a mind and life of their own honestly.. This whole body in fact.  Our bodies have their own will. Lol..

I've done so much thinking and observing...  and FEELING.  That is so important.

Well....  I was kinda looking up some sisterlocks information.. so I'm gonna go back to doing that now.  Since for the past few years.. I haven't been bothering with my OWN hair much... I need to now and I miss it.. I'm def not putting in anymore chemicals.. and shit I'm tired of the damn wigs..esp since it made me lose hair on the sides of my head wtf!!  Hair is so important to me, if it would help I'd cry nd go nuts at that.     Me and weave do not get along. I've only gotten 2 weaves total in my life. The first one was a nice curly one.. but the 2nd was a disaster nd i've been scared since lol..  So locking my hair is def an option.. Just trying to decide btwn sisterlocks and the traditional ones.  This is hard cuz I like both looks.


Can I say something else?

You may see me take short cuts with my words and stuff like that. ...   I DO know how to write properly.  I may not be any english professor and be near perfect... but I do know... and well I write how I speak...this is MY blog.

Do you realize that in life..really you can do what YOU want?  Seriously.. try not to conform so much and just listen to the inner u... It's hard..but I swear you'll feel better..

Anyways later, lol!

Looks like I'm still trying to type forever..

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